Mama To Be, Wife, Emotions....

Mama To Be:

I'm nervous about this pregnancy.... Yes, I've been pregnant many times, but this time, it just feels different. I had my checkup with my OB/Gyn and all is well so far. My blood pressure was up a little bit, so I have to watch my sodium intake....okay, easy enough. My husband is in jail until February 18. That's his next court date. His probation officer is trying to get him on a probation violation on a charge that he hasn't even been convicted of. I think his PO is jumping the gun a bit...but okay. Anyways, since Chris was arrested on January 17, I have talked to him every day, I've mailed him letters and even put money on his books so he can order food from the commissary. The jail food sucks there and Chris was getting sick from the jail food. So now he orders food like soups, sausages, crackers, all kinds of stuff from the commissary to eat now. I send him $40.00/week. I also put at least $100 on the phones each week so we can talk. I only get to talk to him 3 times a day. Once in the morning, once in the afternoon and one last time before they shut the phones off at 11:30pm.
Anyways, I'm nervous about this pregnancy. I am trying to do all the right things. I even quit smoking too, cold turkey to be exact. Yeah, I was real pleasant to be around for the first few days of the nicotine withdrawal. I could have taken someone's head off....hehehehe. But I have a very supportive family and friends too that help me when I need their help. I'm also the proud auntie to my niece's little boy. Little Michael Lavelle Paige, Jr. He is just so precious. Anyways, my niece Rickcal told me that I could have her baby stuff for our baby when it comes times. I thought it was nice of her to offer. She's really sweet. Also, my mom is planning on having a baby shower for me in either April or May. I know that she's going to be in cahoots with my cousin and best friend Georgeanne so they can plan the baby shower. My mom told me that I should register online with Babies R Us or maybe even Wal-Mart or Target. I don't know yet....I'll talk to Chris about it tomorrow and get his thoughts on the idea of registering online for the baby shower. Anyways, his mother, sister & brother still aren't speaking to me. Which is fine by me. Ever since Chris went to jail 2 weeks ago, they haven't spoken to me. They apparently think it's my fault why Chris is in jail. Long story short, Chris should've went to court like he was supposed to, that's why he's in jail right now. Why would I put the father of our baby in jail? Especially when we have been getting along great lately and things have been going good for us. I've been a train wreck since then.

Chris is worried about me getting stressed out because of everything that's going on with him and us right now. I try not to stress, but it's hard not to. I worry because I miss my husband and just want him home with me... I am miserable without him and I just feel lost. The whole situation is just screwed up...
So anyways, I'm going to go and get ready for bed. I have to be up at 7:15 to get Cheyenne ready for school. My mom is taking her to school in the morning and I can go back to bed til 10:30 or so, when Chris calls me.
Until I blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(