Mama To Be, Wife, Emotions....

Mama To Be:

I'm nervous about this pregnancy.... Yes, I've been pregnant many times, but this time, it just feels different. I had my checkup with my OB/Gyn and all is well so far. My blood pressure was up a little bit, so I have to watch my sodium intake....okay, easy enough. My husband is in jail until February 18. That's his next court date. His probation officer is trying to get him on a probation violation on a charge that he hasn't even been convicted of. I think his PO is jumping the gun a bit...but okay. Anyways, since Chris was arrested on January 17, I have talked to him every day, I've mailed him letters and even put money on his books so he can order food from the commissary. The jail food sucks there and Chris was getting sick from the jail food. So now he orders food like soups, sausages, crackers, all kinds of stuff from the commissary to eat now. I send him $40.00/week. I also put at least $100 on the phones each week so we can talk. I only get to talk to him 3 times a day. Once in the morning, once in the afternoon and one last time before they shut the phones off at 11:30pm.
Anyways, I'm nervous about this pregnancy. I am trying to do all the right things. I even quit smoking too, cold turkey to be exact. Yeah, I was real pleasant to be around for the first few days of the nicotine withdrawal. I could have taken someone's head off....hehehehe. But I have a very supportive family and friends too that help me when I need their help. I'm also the proud auntie to my niece's little boy. Little Michael Lavelle Paige, Jr. He is just so precious. Anyways, my niece Rickcal told me that I could have her baby stuff for our baby when it comes times. I thought it was nice of her to offer. She's really sweet. Also, my mom is planning on having a baby shower for me in either April or May. I know that she's going to be in cahoots with my cousin and best friend Georgeanne so they can plan the baby shower. My mom told me that I should register online with Babies R Us or maybe even Wal-Mart or Target. I don't know yet....I'll talk to Chris about it tomorrow and get his thoughts on the idea of registering online for the baby shower. Anyways, his mother, sister & brother still aren't speaking to me. Which is fine by me. Ever since Chris went to jail 2 weeks ago, they haven't spoken to me. They apparently think it's my fault why Chris is in jail. Long story short, Chris should've went to court like he was supposed to, that's why he's in jail right now. Why would I put the father of our baby in jail? Especially when we have been getting along great lately and things have been going good for us. I've been a train wreck since then.

Chris is worried about me getting stressed out because of everything that's going on with him and us right now. I try not to stress, but it's hard not to. I worry because I miss my husband and just want him home with me... I am miserable without him and I just feel lost. The whole situation is just screwed up...
So anyways, I'm going to go and get ready for bed. I have to be up at 7:15 to get Cheyenne ready for school. My mom is taking her to school in the morning and I can go back to bed til 10:30 or so, when Chris calls me.
Until I blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(

Some Thoughts...

I have alot on my mind tonight. I'm more peeved than anything else right now. I called around all day today trying to find a physician that will see because of the car accident I was in on Monday, but to no avail. My family physician told me that they treat my injuries from the accident and that I would have to be referred to a Sports Medicine place in Canton, Ohio. WTF?! Are they kidding me? I live almost 2 hours from Canton and it certainly is NOT worth the drive there. I called just to find out if they could possibly get me in, yeah in about 3 weeks and they got real rude when I said I didn't have health insurance. What does that have to do with anything?? The automobile insurance from the woman that hit us will pick up the tab and I told them that I have a claim number & everything from the insurance company and apparently that wasn't good enough. So I just hung up on the lady after she was everything but polite to me on the phone. Anyways, I put Georgeanne on a mission for me tomorrow...help me find a physician around the Youngstown area that will be able to see me and not be ignorant just because I don't have health insurance at the moment.

Cheyenne is still pretty sore from the accident. Me, my back is going in and out of spasms and my mom's neck is all out of whack. I guess Cheyenne's dad is coming up sometime tomorrow to see Cheyenne...lucky me. I really don't want to see him. Cheyenne decided to tell me 15 minutes before she went to bed that she talked to her Dad and that he was wanting to see her tomorrow. Well I hope he realizes that she goes to school tomorrow and that she won't be home until after 4 o'clock. So he better not even think about showing up before then. Other than for Cheyenne, he has no reason to be here whatsoever.