Easter Bunny Lane Visit

Visit to Easter Bunny Lane:
My mom and I took Cheyenne to Easter Bunny Lane today. There's like a specialty store here called Kraynak's and every year, they have Christmas Lane and Easter Bunny Lane. And the best thing about it is that it's free! It's even free to sit on the Easter Bunny's lap and that's pretty cool. Cheyenne didn't want any part of the Easter Bunny though for some reason, but I didn't push the issue. She's finally starting to feel better, which is a very good sign. Other than that, not much going on here. So I'm going to get off of here and spend some time with my daughter. So until we blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(
P.S.~ Below, you'll find a couple of pictures from today...

What Happened, Divorce, College Student...

What Happened?:
Where's the warm weather?? Yesterday it was 62 out an today it was only 45. No wonder people get sick, ya know? Tomorrow is the first day of spring and I hope the snow is gone until the end of the year. I am so sick of seeing snow because we got pummeled with it this year. I love being outside and so does Cheyenne, but she doesn't like to go out in the cold, which I don't blame her one bit. She asked me today once it gets warmer out, if she could walk home from the bus stop. I don't mind because she comes straight home and doesn't goof off and make me wonder where she is.

Sick Child:
Cheyenne has been sick for 3 days now. The first day, it started out with a fever, sore neck, sore throat, headache and vomiting. The second day was pretty much the same as the first day, except her stomach started hurting. Now today, no vomiting, she was able to keep the chicken soup and powerade down. Now she says the far right side of her abdomen hurts and the only thing that's over that way is her appendix. I'm going to take her to her pediatrician tomorrow and find out what's up. I feel so bad for her when she's sick, because she has no color to her whatsoever. She's as pale as a ghost. Even her eyes are glassy and her pupils are dilated. And when she's sick, she's usually down for at least a week. Her school was doing PSSA (state testing) all this week and she had to miss it. She was looking forward to the testing, because she knew everything that would be on the test. So I called her teacher and he said that she could make it up at the end of the year so she'll be able to go into 4th grade. I still can't believe that my baby is 10 years old, next thing I know, she'll be 16, then 18 graduating from high school, then 21 and hopefully she'll still want to go to college by then. She said that she either wanted to be an Astronaut, Lawyer or a Doctor. And academic wise, she's doing really good. I'm just so proud of her, ya know? She's my baby, well maybe not so much now, but she will always be my baby and she can always come to me for anything.....

It's Official:
I filed for divorce today against Chris. I am done playing his petty BS games. What he does is run his mouth and just make up shit to get into any kind of argument that he can with me. Just something for him to fight with me about. He'll leave smart ass remarks on my voicemail saying. "tell your boyfriend that I said hi." First of all, I don't have a boyfriend and I can't count how many times I have told him this. And I should have known that it was only a matter of time before he picks a fight with me. I don't look at other men, let alone look at them when we're together, because when we're together, I have no reason to look at anyone else. But that's not a good enough reason for him. But it's alright that when I went over to see him one day, his ex GF was in front of his house, and he was standing over the door of the car looking pretty cozy with her. I was livid!! And he said that I had no reason to be upset because nothing happened. That's not the *@!*&# point! Now if I was to do that with my ex, he would have knocked the crap outta me and put in the hospital for it. It has to be one sided with him. He can't compromise with someone if his life depended on it. And personally, it's time I moved on. A good friend of mine, Jessica and her boyfriend D, both told me that Chris is a time bomb just waiting to explode and that I could do much better and be with someone that wants to be with me, someone who is NOT controlling at ALL, someone that understands that when my daughter is sick, I do need to be with her. That's another thing that he got pissed off about. When I told him the other day that I couldn't come down because Cheyenne was sick, he told me that it was just another excuse to not come over and see him! How fucking lame is that?!?! REALLY?? When I'm here in bed sleeping, he'll call and if don't answer the phone by the 3rd ring, he will leave me a nasty voicemail saying that I'm nothing but a whore, a slut and that I need to answer the f'n phone. Now why would I want to be with someone that is treating me like shit and belittles me in front of my family & friends? I can honestly say that I regret every marrying him and the sooner that the divorce goes through, the better. And that's one step closer to getting my life back on track.

New College Student:
That's right..I officially enrolled in an online college today. The name of the college is Centura College and I did some research and found that between Centura and University of Phoenix, that Centura's courses were more suited to my needs and I like the fact that I can even take the classes late at night if I had to. The method to my madness is to take the courses when Cheyenne is in school, that way I can concentrate on my studies, without interruptions. I will be taking Medical Coding/Medical Transcription w/Medical Management course and the classes start on May 11. I will have my Associate's Degree in only 18 months. This is something that I am really looking forward to and even my parent's are proud of me. I took the entrance exam yesterday and I surprisingly got an A on it. I was so excited when I logged onto the site and looked at my grade for the exam! Well, I'm going to get off of here and try to get some sleep because for the past 3 nights, I've only been able to get a couple hours sleep here and there because I've been getting up with Cheyenne when she's vomited. Not that I'm complaining because that's what I'm supposed to do for my daughter. So until we blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(

I Said Goodbye,

Said Goodbye:
I called Chris and told him to meet me at Georgie's house today. I wanted to meet him on neutral ground, because the less people around, the better. Well, when I got there, he was already there. I no sooner got out of the jeep, and he says this, 'where the fuck did you get the pittsburgh keychain from? Did your boyfriend buy it for you?' He always says some sarcastic bullshit. It's like he purposely makes up shit to start an argument. I don't know how many more times I can attempt to convince that I haven't been with anybody, but that's not a good enough answer. It's like he wants me to cheat on him. Well, the thought has never crossed my mind. And I just got over being sick, so having sex wasn't on my list of priorities at the moment. So he took it as I was sleeping with someone else. That is the farthest thing from my mind. After about 20 minutes of bickering back and forth, I told him that I was walking away and that I am done with the emotional abuse. I am tired of being called names on a daily basis, I am tired of having anxiety attacks because he thinks by doing so, it makes him feel in control. It has gotten to the point where he has alienated me from MY daughter. When I go see him, I'm not allowed to go home until after 10 most nights and by that time, Cheyenne is in bed and then I don't get to see her or spend any time with her at all. I tried to tell him about it, and he said that I was making it up, even though I'm not the only one that notices it. So, does that make us all liars?!? And I think it's going to come down to me changing my phone number again. Now, it's time for me to get off of here because it's getting late. Marty will be here at 10am to pick me up, we're leaving for the day. So until we blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(

Feeling Disconnected Today...

Disconnected:
I guess it's just an 'off' day for me today. Nothing seems to be going right. I went over to see Georgie today, and we decided to take her daughter, Heaven, to the park for a little bit. It was such a nice day out, and I knew that Heaven wanted to go to the park and play on the swings and stuff. And even doing that, I just felt 'out of sorts'. I sure hope tomorrow will be a better day, because something has got to give. Right now, Chris and I are arguing, and that's not helping matters much at all. I hate it when we argue, because he thinks he's always right, and expects an apology even if he knows he was wrong...he will NEVER apologize first and it irritates me to no end when he does that. And I also think he knows that too lol. And not to mention, when we do argue, I get depressed, and get knots in my stomach and then the anxiety attacks set it. He doesn't understand this and you think he would because he's seen my anxiety attacks before. It feels like someone is sitting on my chest and I can't breathe. Oh, another thing, if people would just keep their yaps shut and stop talking trash, we wouldn't have many problems. But there's always someone out there who's jealous and doesn't want to see us happy and they start running their yaps and cause all kinds of problems for us, that we don't need. We have a hard enough time trying to make it. And I have found that the people that do open up their yaps are the ones that are jealous of how happy we are and can be. There's been times to where I wish we could just move away from all the bullshit, but financially, we can't afford to move out of Youngstown. So we're stuck in this hell hole of a town, while people run their mouths.

Job Hunting:
Well, the job hunting isn't going very well. This economy is so tanked right now. I put applications in to various places, with the hopes that someone will call me, but no luck so far. I have my certification as a Home Health Aide from the state but no one is hiring, at least not me anyways. I've only been fired from one job in my life. But I'm trying so very hard to keep my chin up and that I will find something soon. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents, but living with them is hard on Cheyenne and I. I hardly have any privacy....I just want a house that I can call my own, ya know? Where Chris, Cheyenne & I can be a family, living together. But it's just so hard, because I can't catch a break anywhere. It can be disheartening and discouraging at times. So anyways, I'm gonna get off of here and try to get rid of this migraine, before I end up in the ER tonight. So until we blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(

A Great Day!!

A Great Day:
Today was a great day, all in all. Chris and I took Cheyenne fishing, so she could try out her new fishing pole that she got for her birthday. Although she didn't catch any fish after the 3rd hour, we headed back to Debbie's house so we could all hook up to go into the mud pits. Last night, Chris' friend, Ryan was in the pits with us and we were on a trail and he busted 3 of his lugnuts off his Blazer. So he couldn't go in the mud with us today. But Cheyenne had fun because Ricky brought the quad down into the pits so the kiddos could take turns going on the quad with someone. Greg also brought Jeremy, which put Cheyenne in a good mood because she had someone else to play with down there. It was a nice day, and the pits were still pretty muddy from last week's rain, so why not enjoy it outside, right? Now that the weather is getting warmer and it's staying warm, we'll be out in the pits every weekend and then when Yankee Lake opens back up, we'll be up there on Friday nights.

Just Rambling:
Oh yeah, Chris and I filed our income taxes yesterday, and I thought that we would get some money the same day, but we'll have to wait 8-10 days. I was a little bummed out, but I do know that those 8-10 days will just DRAG!! lol I'm looking forward to it because Chris is going to buy me a diamond 'Journey' wedding band. And we're also going to the Pocono Mtns. for a couple days for our honeymoon because we didn't go on a honeymoon after we got married. But it's a stunning B&B, the house it a Gothic style Victorian. I fell in love with the house almost immediately and when I showed the pictures of the house to Chris, he fell in love with the house too. Both my Mom and Georgie offered to keep Cheyenne that weekend. So when it comes closer to the time that we're leaving, we'll let her decide where she wants to stay. I'm trying to let her be independent, but yet still have some control in her life, ya know? I just can't believe that she's 10 already! Where have all these years gone?? Next thing I know, she'll be 16 and then 21. My baby isn't such a baby anymore. Well, it's getting pretty late so I'm going to get off of here and get some sleep. I have to get up early with Cheyenne in the AM and take her to school. She took my wallet to school and it's in her desk and I need my SS card out of there so I can take that and my marriage license to the bank tomorrow. So until we blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(

Sharing Some Birthday Pictures....

Cheyenne's Birthday Pictures:

I finally uploaded the pictures from Cheyenne's birthday party last weekend. Did I mention that she had a wonderful birthday?!? Chris' entire family was there, they're all related to her now by marriage, so about 40 people showed up for her. She was shocked that everyone was there for her. She had her Hannah Montana pinata, which Chris had to hold up because it was too heavy to hang from the ceiling. It turned into a cookout and Chris did the food on the grill and everything just fell into place, if that makes sense. She got a fishing pole(from us), cards with money in them, a Hannah Montana DS game(from Chris' mom & dad), HM plate set and cups(Uncle Matt) a HM 300 pc. puzzle(from Jeremy & Josh). She got quite a bit of money which added up to be over $100 which included 2 gift cards. So she made out pretty well if you ask me. So without further ado, here's the pictures: Picture #1 is her HM birthday cake, Picture #2 is her Pinata, and Picture #3 is Cheyenne with her new HM Nintendo DS game. So enjoy the pictures everyone! Well, it's getting late and I need to get some sleep. We have a busy day planned tomorrow...family fishing trip! So until we blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(

My Baby's 10 Today!!

Ten Years Old Today:
Where has the time gone?? My baby is 10 today, well technically not for another 4 hours, but still. I went to see Chris today and we ended up at Wal-Mart and got Cheyenne a Disney Princess fishing pole. She talked about wanting her own pole and her birthday was coming up so we got it... it was only $10.96, which wasn't bad at all, ya know? We also got her Hannah Montana balloons too. We got those at Giant Eagle, which we only paid $12.96 for a dozen balloons. This year we decided to go with the Hannah Montana theme for her birthday. I'm kind of pissed off that my mother is letting her Dad come up here for her party. So I told her that I was leaving and that she could meet me at my house in Brookfield after dipshit left. I have nothing to say to that asshole. I'm trying to work things out with my husband and I don't need him running his mouth or trying to get Chris and I to argue. That will NOT happen! Well anyways, Chris and I decorated Cheyenne's HM cake and it turned out pretty nice. I plan on taking lots of pictures tomorrow of Cheyenne's cake and her opening up her presents. So look either here or at Facebook for the pictures. Well, it's late and I need to get up early tomorrow. Have a busy day planned for her!
So until we blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(

I Can't Believe It...

Can't Believe It:
I wrecked my Jeep today, well actually yesterday now. I was going down the freeway and this asshole was beside me and then he got right behind me. But I had my turn signal on, getting ready to turn in to the gas station to get gas. So instead of having him plow into me, I hit a patch of gravel, brakes locked up and I slid right into the fucking pole!! I tore off the wheel flare, the wheel well was laying on top of my tire, detroyed my bumper, did fender and suspension damage. So on Monday, it's going to the body shop and the insurance is going to take care of it. I was so pissed off that I could have screamed right there, but I had to keep my cool because I had Cheyenne in the jeep with me. I was able to make it over to Chris's mom's house so he could try to put the wheel flare and wheel well back together somewhat so I could get it home later. Luckily, he was able to do that. It doesn't look half bad now, lol. Cheyenne got a little bit of whiplash when I hit the pole because she didn't have her seatbelt on like she was supposed to and got flung from the back seat and whacked her head off the passenger seat in the front. So I'm going to keep an eye on her to make sure she's alright. When I called Chris to let him know that I wrecked the Jeep, I was in hysterics and crying and he couldn't understand anything that I was saying to him. He finally got me to calm down and I told him that I wrecked the jeep and that the wheel flare was in my backseat, marker light busted out completely and everything else that got busted up in the aftermath. I just figured I'd hit that than have some asswipe plow into me because the damage probably would've been worse I'm sure. So I'm headed to bed, with thoughts of how much it's going to cost to fix... So until we blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(