Sleepless Night, Relationship Issues, Girls' Day Out....

Sleepless Night:
One word....pain. My back feels like someone is stabbing me in my lower back and I just wish that it would quit hurting so I can attempt to get some sleep tonight. I hate taking pain meds for it, but I had to tonight. That's how bad it hurts me. Also, Cheyenne is having a sleepover tonight and her friend Tea', seems to think that she can stay up all night here. She tried to tell me that her mom lets her stay up all night at home....well not in this house. Then she told me that she'd go home....bye! This child's mother lets her get away with whatever. She has no manners to speak of, uses her sleeve of her shirt to wipe her mouth after she's done eating. I don't get it. And she managed to spill Coke all over my new couch. I was NOT happy about that because it left a HUGE stain on it. I just hope I can get the stain out of it....she could've at least apologized for spilling it, but all she did was laugh and say oh well. Ok.....

Relationship Issues:
Yes, I'm having issues in our relationship. The latest news, or old news should I say, is that my husband is calling me a whore and anything else he can think of. I have NEVER cheated on him, even when we weren't together. But I don't get it. He 'claims' that he loves me and wants to work out our marriage, then he flips a switch and becomes a real asshole. You know what I did for New Year's?? I spent it at home with Cheyenne, my Mom and my Aunt Marty. If you read my last few posts, I had made plans to go to my cousin's for New Year's but after the money 'incident', I decided not to go. And I thought that at least Chris would understand that. I guess not. So he called me 35 times between last night and tonight saying that " I'm nothing but a whore and that he hopes I had fun with the guy that I supposedly slept with last night". Yeah, ok. Just because I didn't go over there last night, that makes me a whore, right? Yeah, imagine that!! And I swear to the Goddess that if he calls me a whore ONE MORE TIME, I will get my phone number changed and I won't give it to him. And people wonder why I'm irritable and stressed out. My HUSBAND of all people is the main cause of my irritability and stress. I just wish he would realize that. I'm tired of being called names and treated like shit. He also said that nothing he does can make me happy? Well why should it?? All he does lately is put me down and make me feel like I'm not worth a damn, so why should I be happy? Maybe if he got a job and kept it, things wouldn't be so bad. But he's not even attempting to look for a job. He'd rather sit on his butt and wait for the jobs to come to him or somethin'.....lol. I'm just tired of waiting for something that I know won't happen. And we can't survive on just my income alone, ya know? I have a hard enough time getting all my bills paid. I need help and I've told him that I need help. He acts like it doesn't bother him and he doesn't care. Well, you know what, as of right now, I don't care either. If he wants to be lazy the rest of his life, then I want no part of it. What more do I have to do to make him realize that I need help? I am literally at my wit's end here....and the really fucked up part is that I still love him, and at the same time, I know that it will never work between us.

Girl's Day Out:
Cheyenne, Aunt Marty & I are going to have a girl's day out tomorrow. Now that is something that I'm looking forward to. We're going out for breakfast, which will be a nice change from cooking every day, ya know? Then, we're going to do a little bit of shopping too. My aunt is staying here with Cheyenne and I tonight, so she'll already be here.

Well, my pain meds are starting to kick my arse, and that means it's time for me to get to bed. So, until we blog again, hugs and blessed be!!