Court Aftermath, Moving, Random Thoughts, Christmas

Court Aftermath:
Court didn't go how I thought it would and I'm still scratching my head wondering what the hell just happened here? I thought the judge was going to keep Chris in jail for violating the TPO, nope that didn't happen. Ok but what came out of my mouth next shocked even me. The judge asked me to come up and tell him what exactly what was going on. So I told everything that had happened and even mentioned to good times and when I was happy. Because when I was with him, I was happy. And after he lost his job, we were together 24/7 and you couldn't cut the tension with a knife. And that's when things got bad. Then the judge asked me what I would like him to do, and I told him that I wanted my husband back. So for the next 6 months, we have to go to marriage counseling. So we'll see what happens from there.

Moving:
I am officially moving. Friends of ours are moving out of their apartment and offered it to us. So we're going to try this and see how it goes. $450 a month includes all utilities, which is nice. So next weekend, we're moving in there. Let me tell you, I cannot wait to get the hell out of this house. It's just too much for me anymore, ya know? And it's time to move on and be happy with my family. And once we get settled in our apartment, we're going to have a little house warming party and have some of the family and friends over. I think it will be nice.

Random Thoughts:
Some people have told me that I shouldn't be with him because of our history, but I have never loved a man as much as I love him. I can't deny how I feel and it's so obvious.....lol But everyone is entitled to their opinions right? So other than that, not much going on. Cheyenne is very excited about Christmas coming up. She's bummed that her dad won't be around, but not much I can do about that. If he wants to be an asshole, then I want no part of it. He just needs to get over the fact that we are no longer married and I don't want to be with him. What's really fucked up is that last year, when his Semi(big rig) was having major engine problems and he couldn't get a new truck financed so what he did was this... he went to my dad and asked him to help him get a new truck. Well, my dad told him that the only way he was getting a new truck was if him and I got back together. I thought that he actually wanted to work things out. I was way off. It was just a front so he could get his new fucking truck. I will never forgive him for it. He's done alot of other stupid shit to get what he wanted from my dad. But no more. His good friend (which just happens to be my husband's uncle) is running his mouth thinking that he has something to gain by running his mouth to Brian, who in turn runs his mouth to my dad trying to score brownie points with him...pretending to be a fucking saint. Well I got news for him. He is no saint, nor will he ever be. And what's really fucked up is that I fell for his crap and lied right thru his teeth to me. But whatever, ya know?

Christmas:
I only want 2 things for Christmas this year..... to be with my daughter and husband for the holidays and for Chris and I to be happy without everyone interfering in our relationship. That's all I want and I don't think I'm asking for too much, am I? Speaking of wanting things for Christmas, when Cheyenne went to see Santa a few weeks ago, she had this HUGE ass list of what she wanted. It was priceless! Most of the stuff she wants is relatively inexpensive. Some of the things she wants is Moon Sand, anything HSM 3 or Hannah Montana, stuff like that. So Chris and I are going to do our damnest to make sure she has a nice Christmas. That's the most important thing, ya know? It's getting late and Cheyenne is done watching her movie, so we're going to bed now...lol. So until we blog again....hugs and blessed be!