Mama To Be, Wife, Emotions....

Mama To Be:

I'm nervous about this pregnancy.... Yes, I've been pregnant many times, but this time, it just feels different. I had my checkup with my OB/Gyn and all is well so far. My blood pressure was up a little bit, so I have to watch my sodium intake....okay, easy enough. My husband is in jail until February 18. That's his next court date. His probation officer is trying to get him on a probation violation on a charge that he hasn't even been convicted of. I think his PO is jumping the gun a bit...but okay. Anyways, since Chris was arrested on January 17, I have talked to him every day, I've mailed him letters and even put money on his books so he can order food from the commissary. The jail food sucks there and Chris was getting sick from the jail food. So now he orders food like soups, sausages, crackers, all kinds of stuff from the commissary to eat now. I send him $40.00/week. I also put at least $100 on the phones each week so we can talk. I only get to talk to him 3 times a day. Once in the morning, once in the afternoon and one last time before they shut the phones off at 11:30pm.
Anyways, I'm nervous about this pregnancy. I am trying to do all the right things. I even quit smoking too, cold turkey to be exact. Yeah, I was real pleasant to be around for the first few days of the nicotine withdrawal. I could have taken someone's head off....hehehehe. But I have a very supportive family and friends too that help me when I need their help. I'm also the proud auntie to my niece's little boy. Little Michael Lavelle Paige, Jr. He is just so precious. Anyways, my niece Rickcal told me that I could have her baby stuff for our baby when it comes times. I thought it was nice of her to offer. She's really sweet. Also, my mom is planning on having a baby shower for me in either April or May. I know that she's going to be in cahoots with my cousin and best friend Georgeanne so they can plan the baby shower. My mom told me that I should register online with Babies R Us or maybe even Wal-Mart or Target. I don't know yet....I'll talk to Chris about it tomorrow and get his thoughts on the idea of registering online for the baby shower. Anyways, his mother, sister & brother still aren't speaking to me. Which is fine by me. Ever since Chris went to jail 2 weeks ago, they haven't spoken to me. They apparently think it's my fault why Chris is in jail. Long story short, Chris should've went to court like he was supposed to, that's why he's in jail right now. Why would I put the father of our baby in jail? Especially when we have been getting along great lately and things have been going good for us. I've been a train wreck since then.

Chris is worried about me getting stressed out because of everything that's going on with him and us right now. I try not to stress, but it's hard not to. I worry because I miss my husband and just want him home with me... I am miserable without him and I just feel lost. The whole situation is just screwed up...
So anyways, I'm going to go and get ready for bed. I have to be up at 7:15 to get Cheyenne ready for school. My mom is taking her to school in the morning and I can go back to bed til 10:30 or so, when Chris calls me.
Until I blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(

Some Thoughts...

I have alot on my mind tonight. I'm more peeved than anything else right now. I called around all day today trying to find a physician that will see because of the car accident I was in on Monday, but to no avail. My family physician told me that they treat my injuries from the accident and that I would have to be referred to a Sports Medicine place in Canton, Ohio. WTF?! Are they kidding me? I live almost 2 hours from Canton and it certainly is NOT worth the drive there. I called just to find out if they could possibly get me in, yeah in about 3 weeks and they got real rude when I said I didn't have health insurance. What does that have to do with anything?? The automobile insurance from the woman that hit us will pick up the tab and I told them that I have a claim number & everything from the insurance company and apparently that wasn't good enough. So I just hung up on the lady after she was everything but polite to me on the phone. Anyways, I put Georgeanne on a mission for me tomorrow...help me find a physician around the Youngstown area that will be able to see me and not be ignorant just because I don't have health insurance at the moment.

Cheyenne is still pretty sore from the accident. Me, my back is going in and out of spasms and my mom's neck is all out of whack. I guess Cheyenne's dad is coming up sometime tomorrow to see Cheyenne...lucky me. I really don't want to see him. Cheyenne decided to tell me 15 minutes before she went to bed that she talked to her Dad and that he was wanting to see her tomorrow. Well I hope he realizes that she goes to school tomorrow and that she won't be home until after 4 o'clock. So he better not even think about showing up before then. Other than for Cheyenne, he has no reason to be here whatsoever.

Almost Here!

Well, Christmas is almost here....3 more days! In a way, I will be glad when it's over so my daughter will quit asking me what we got her for Christmas. I swear every day for the past month, that's all she's done. Every single day! lol And I tell her the same thing every day, if she keeps asking, she won't get anything from anyone. That quickly ends the conversation...hehehe

I got a surprise call today that I wasn't expecting at all. Brian called me and asked me if I wanted to go Christmas shopping with him. I was completely shocked. So I agreed to meet him at Wal-Mart. I was looking at some pajamas and he got them for me for Christmas. I told him that he didn't have to do that and that I would get them eventually and he told me "Merry Christmas honey." So I kindly thanked him and we went about our business, continuing shopping for Cheyenne. Did I mention that Brian brought one of his friends with him and I think he noticed the way that Brian and I looked at each other. Anyways, for the next hour or so while we're there, we actually got along and shopped like we did when we were together. It was weird and familiar at the same time, if that makes any sense at all. But anyways, that's enough for tonight and I'm exhausted from a very long day today!

Shopping is Done!!!

Shopping is Done Finally!! :

My mom and I finally got our Christmas shopping done today. We decided to go to Wal-Mart, I figured that was our best bet as I didn't think they would be as packed as the mall would be. And I was right too. We finished shopping for Cheyenne, there were a few more things that she added to her Christmas list. There's 4 more people I need to get for... Mom, Dad, Marty & Heaven Irene. I know what Heaven and Marty want. Heaven wants anything that has Dora the Explorer or stuff like that. And for Marty, she like candles, Garfield the cat. Now Mom & Dad will be a little harder to shop for. But that's okay. I like going out and Christmas shopping, except on Christmas Eve or the day after Christmas.

Other than that, not much going on here. My Mom got me an early Christmas present today while we were at Wal-Mart. She got me "Hidden Expedition, Devil's Triangle". It's a hidden object game and so far, it's pretty cool. I get into mysteries, sci-fi and stuff like that. I want to get World of Warcraft, but it's pretty expensive when you get all the expansion packs and stuff for it. But I like the game I got, so I'm not complaining lol.

Unwinding.....

Unwinding:

Today was a busy day. I got up at 9:30 and I took Cheyenne to basketball practice. Then I picked her up at noon and we came home for a bit. She didn't want to go to my niece's birthday party so she ended up going to stay at her friend's house for the night. Georgeanne had a nice party for Heaven. I helped Georgeanne make the cake and get everything ready for the party. No one else seemed to want to help pitch in with anything. But I told Georgeanne that if she needed any help at all to just let me know. It ended up being a real nice party. We took a bunch of pictures and I'm going to upload them the Walmart's website and then pick them up. Heaven got a lot of nice things for her birthday. I just can't believe that she's 6. I remember holding her when she was a baby and she has grown up so fast. Next thing I know, she'll be getting ready to graduate high school. It's the same with Cheyenne, next thing I know too, she'll be off to college. Anyways, Rickcal came up, she said to help, but she really didn't help much. She sat most of the time. I asked her if she could wash out the cake pan real quick and she copped an attitude with me. Granted, I know she's pregnant, but Georgeanne was preoccupied trying to get the chili sauce and the hot dogs ready. And I was mixing the other layer for cake. Georgeanne had a HUGE 2 layer cake with strawberry glaze in the middle. That cake was off the chain!! It was so good that it gave me a sugar buzz lol. So that was the extent of my day. I'll upload pictures from the party tomorrow. I'm exhausted. So until I blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(

A Busy Day Planned For Tomorrow!

A Busy Day Tomorrow:

I have a busy day planned, all starting at 9:30 am. Cheyenne has basketball practice tomorrow, it's their first practice of the season and they're going to be playing in games this year finally. They didn't play any games last year. And they also get their schedule, which she didn't get last year, or Cheyenne lost it somewhere. So that's why I'm going to take her so I can get the schedule and keep it on the fridge. Then after that Cheyenne is spending the night at her friend Tea's. And I'm going to Georgeanne's daughter's birthday party at 3:30. Heaven will be 6 tomorrow. I remember holding her when she was a baby. I still have to get her a birthday present. I'll do that sometime tomorrow between running around lol.
Then after the party, a friend of mine and I are going to see New Moon. I'm so excited!! I've been wanting to see it since they first announced it. So that's about it for around here. So until I blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(

Well I've Made Up My Mind...

Well I've Made Up My Mind:

I've decided to go back to Blogger for all my blogging needs. I love that I can change my themes accordingly to my mood or for the holidays. Wordpress is good too, but Blogger is better in the fact that I can change my template for free. I'm actually looking forward to Christmas this year. Cheyenne is going to have a nice Christmas and I am going to make sure of that. By hook or by crook, it will be one of the best Christmas's for her. And I'm not even going to ask for Brian's help because he likes to throw shit back in face eventually. I mean I don't care if he gets her something for Christmas, but he doesn't need to rub it in my face. He thinks that I need his help, but this Christmas, I will prove to him that I don't need his help.
So that's about it. So until we blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(